I've never been adept at juggling. Or multitasking.
Sure, I done many things in my life and my interests are widely varied, but I've always approached my to-do list one thing at a time, slowly and quietly.
Unfortunately this approach doesn't work well in many job situations, including the one I recently lost. Most of us do what we have to do to make a living, keep up and make life work. And usually, that means a lot of juggling.
Like most people, I always did a pretty good juggling act, but it was destroying me inside. I did what I thought I had to do because that's what we humans do.
After my brain injury, I found myself unable to even utter a sentence while tying my shoe. Even feeble attempts at multitasking resulted in emotional meltdowns or worse, household accidents involving kitchen appliances or utensils.
I am physically and mentally unable to multi-task after my brain injury. I can't even fake it. It just doesn't work. Everything shuts down and the result is never pretty.
And guess what?
I'm glad.
I am so much happier in slow motion, approaching one task at a time, being present in whatever is happening in each moment.
A hidden blessing indeed. I like myself better this way.
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